Debut Novel · 2026

The Lie That Loved Me Back

by Todrian Rush

A novel about a woman who has spent years constructing a love story so perfectly that she can no longer tell where the lie ends and she begins.

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In Loving Memory

Jammie Peoples

"The most kind woman I ever met — and the one who helped me find my way through my own past."

This novel is dedicated to her.

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"The tragedy of happiness is that you never recognize it in real time. Only in retrospect, when it's already become memory, already started to decay."

— From the novel

The Lie That Loved Me Back cover

The Lie That Loved Me Back

A Novel by Todrian Rush

Literary Fiction Psychological Debut Dallas, TX

Emily Hewitt attends AA meetings in Dallas, where she tells the group about the man who loved her — gently, completely, in a way no one ever had. But something about her stories is too perfect. Too complete. And the reader, like Emily herself, will have to decide what to do with that feeling.

ISBN 9798257733727 Format Paperback & eBook Genre Literary Fiction · Psychological Published 2026

A novel designed to make you question your own reading.

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The Uncanny Valley
Emily's memories are too perfectly recalled — every detail exactly right. That sensation of almost-but-not-quite is the point. The prose is engineered to unsettle.
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The Déjà Vu Structure
Phrases and images return across chapters with subtle shifts. The reader begins to feel what Emily feels — a low unease, a sense of having been here before.
III
The Unreliable Performance
Emily is brilliant at telling stories. The AA meeting frame places the reader in the same position as her audience — moved, seduced, and slowly unsure.

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ISBN
979-8-2577-3372-7

"Read carefully. Or don't. Emily would understand either way."

— Todrian Rush, on the novel

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Literary fiction set in Dallas. A debut novel. A narrator you won't forget — and may not entirely trust.

t.rush@yahoo.com

The Lie That

Loved Me Back

Todrian Rush · ISBN 9798257733727 · 2026

The Lie That Loved Me Back

Some stories are too perfect to be true.

Emily Hewitt attends AA meetings in Dallas. She is articulate, self-aware, and has a way of sharing that makes the room go quiet. She tells the group about the man who loved her — the way he drove with the windows down, the particular light of October afternoons, the feeling of being, for the first time, exactly where she was supposed to be.

But something about her stories unsettles. They are too vivid, too complete. Real memory doesn't work like that. And the reader, like Emily's group, will have to reckon with a growing feeling — the sense that something is off, that they have heard this before, that the story is a little too good to be entirely true.

The Lie That Loved Me Back is a novel about what the mind builds in the absence of love — and the cost of living inside what you've built. It is a book about performance and truth, about the past we carry and the stories we use to survive it.

Set in Dallas, Texas. Structured to make you question your own reading.

Book Details
Genre
Literary Fiction · Psychological
ISBN
9798257733727
Chapters
18
Setting
Dallas, Texas
Published
2026

Eighteen chapters. One question.

What does the mind build when the truth is too painful to hold?

Prose as psychology
The writing is deliberately more controlled than real memory — more complete than genuine recall. That quality of being too perfect is not a flaw. It is the first signal that something is wrong.
The return of the familiar
Images and phrases recur across chapters. The reader begins to feel a low-grade unease — have I read this before? Am I imagining it? That disorientation is structural, not accidental.
A novel that rewards rereading
The second reading is a different experience entirely. What felt like prose becomes evidence. What felt like memory becomes architecture. The book is built to be discovered twice.

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Todrian

Rush

Writer. Entrepreneur.
Dallas, Texas.

Todrian Rush

Todrian Rush is a writer and entrepreneur based in Dallas, Texas. The Lie That Loved Me Back is his debut novel — rooted in the specific geography and emotional texture of Dallas, a city he knows intimately.

The novel began with a single question Todrian couldn't let go of: what does the mind construct when the truth becomes unlivable? The answer became Emily Hewitt — a narrator whose voice is so precisely constructed that readers have compared finishing the book to waking from a dream they can't quite verify.

Todrian is also the founder of Prometheus Performance, a collections strategy consultancy working with single-family rental operators and property managers across the country. He brings the same analytical eye to his fiction — a precision for the gap between what people say and what they actually mean.

"The people closest to us know where to aim. They know the soft places. They know because they built you — and the architect always knows where the walls are thinnest."

He lives and writes in Dallas, where the light in October is still that particular gold.

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t.rush@yahoo.com